It's only 9:55 pm but I'm already falling asleep, since last night I barely got some rest from 2:30 am to 5:00 am. Thanks Social & Economic Structure of Mexico class! Chances are this entry's gonna suck cuz I can't write in this state (or even read what I'm typing) but still, I have to mention two things real quick. First of all. OMG I loved Slumdog Millionaire, I'm adding it to my favorites on facebook and myspace as I write this. It's like... amazing. The cinematography & music were excellent in my opinion & I wouldn't mind going to see it again. I really recommend it, no wonder it won 8 Oscars! Now the next one in line to watch is Milk, can't wait!
SLUM LOVE
Right now my dad's in Bangkok, and he sent me some cool pictures of what there is to see over there. This temple looks sweet! After seeing this, plus Slumdog Millionaire, I'm all set for going to South East Asia anytime. No really, I'd love to visit that area someday.
Is why it took so long before I wrote another entry. Warning: I still don't feel like I have any inspiration. & I had to MAKE time (goodbye homework) to write this.
The only thing that comes to mind right now, and the only thing that doesn't have to do with school, is watching movies. I made a list of "Movies I Have To See" while I was watching the Academy Awards the other day, which I really liked by the way. Here's what I wanna see, in the order I wanna see them:
Slumdog Millionaire
Milk
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
The Doubt
Vicky Cristina Barcelona
Happy-Go-Lucky
Yeah I know, the first four were like the most important ones at the awards and I haven't even seen them, but looking at all the Oscars they won made me even more excited. Obviously I don't have time to watch them all for now... but I'll start with Slumdog Millionaire this Friday and take it from there. Milk isn't even out here yet.
PINKY NIPPLES! LOL.
On a more personal note. School's driving me crazy. I don't know how some people do it, I don't even work that hard and I still get very tired. If it wasn't for my wonderful, hard working friends, which I sometimes take advantage of, I dunno where I'd be. But about taking advantage, I am sorry. I wanna say "you guys need to push me so I do stuff" but no... that would only make it worse. So I don't know... you'll have to put up with me just a little longer, c'mon, we're almost done with highschool. I'll pay back every single thing you do for me at school in hugs & lots of loveeee. I'll be taking the TOEFL on April 3rd. One of the days Patrick is here. Ugh. Lame. And I need to get those recommendation letters! I wanna get the whole University thing overwith already.
I just found this site today that has a few online multiplayer games. One of these games consists of a big blackboard where different "guests" can come and draw whatever they want, simultaneously. This is pretty cool because you get to see what other people draw + their different styles, and man let me tell you, those asians are so damn good, they made my drawings look like shit but I don't care. I'm still having a blast... Me & Patrick where there for a few hours, in a more "private" room (there's 10 rooms) drawing stuff and guessing what it was, like Pictionary or whatever it's called. So yeah, it's creative & fun, you should check it out.
Here's some artwork from multiple guests.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Deep inside of you, there's a ruby glow. And it gets brighter than you & I will ever know.
There's a rushing sound, that surrounds us, when we walk alone. And it's everything we've never known.
Wander down the street. And I will be the pavement beneath your feet.
I'm feeling a bit lonely this afternoon. I told Patrick I wouldn't be home today cuz I had to do a project, but that didn't happen. And now I'm home... a bit early, and he's not online obviously. He's probably playing the Sims or something. Okay I didn't wanna start writing this kind of stuff to be honest... but there's nothing else I feel like doing. I already heated up three slices of pizza and gobbled them up. I'm certainly not gonna work on my homework just yet. Procrastination, I'm doing it right. I swear I'm not always this needy. I mean, I used to be, but then I got over it. I always have these kinds of days when I'm more susceptible to these kinds of feelings. And don't even mention being on some sort of "man-period", cuz you'll be ignored. Meh. I'll just sit here listening to John Mayer, can't get enough of him. I dare say he's my new favorite artist. New as in he just got ontop of the list, but I've been listening to him for a while now. And now I don't have to lie or be embarassed when they ask me my favorite artist (which used to be Britney Spears). I mainly denied that I liked her to avoid awkward moments. I didn't even like her new album that much... I stopped listening to it like three weeks after it came out, but whatever. This is my lamest entry so far, but so what? I can't always write with the same quality, I'm not saying I was getting good or anything, but this is sort of... just writing and letting it flow without any control. It feels good, bet you're thinking "yeah it doesn't make much sense when you read it though". Random thoughts: Blogging might just be improving my language skills or at least increasing my english vocabulary. Which is good by the way because next month I'm taking the TOEFL exam, which I need in order to apply to Hanze University (there's the link in case you wanna check out where I'm probably gonne be studying). I want some rain. I know right? Can't you just be happy with the weather you have for once? Well I am... I mean, the super sunny days we've been having are awesome, and way better than the freezing cold mornings or chilly afternoons before that, but now I feel like having a nice storm outside, maybe get a coffee or something. I wish all my friends were my neigbhours. That would be awesome. It would improve not only our social life, not that it needs improving (I'm popular I swear haha), but also our grades probably. Imagine all the study groups and stuff. Oh yeah. But it's not like that. Something that made me laugh today: When Arturo, my Man & Science teacher, made a demonstration with his hands of how a bird explodes when a baseball hits it. It was something like: "It was flying happily when suddenly, bam, it exploded." Only with him doing funny faces and whistling like a bird.
Uhm, something random, I just looked up if quotation marks go before or after the period, went to a site called The Quotations Page and to my surprise, they don't have any quotation marks there. Go figure. Has this been sufficiently boring for you? I had a lot of fun, I just might write more of these, so if you didn't like it, ignore it next time.
I'm cold with the people who are sweet to me. I'm too affective when it's kind of out of place. Sometimes other people's happiness irritates me. I don't know how to comfort the ones I love. Am I a bad person?
There are so many things in life that we like, and we make sure everyone around us knows we do; but there's probably even more that we never mention. Sometime we don't even notice them ourselves, but it's those tiny details that make us smile during the day, at random times, they can even cheer us up when we're down or awake something inside of us. They can be things you see, smell, hear, taste, feel, or even imagine.
As for myself, I love...
The smell of mud, especially in the forest, combined with the scent of pine trees.
Typing on a macbook, with those lovely flat keys, even more if they're white.
When someone rubs my back gently, or (a little more intimate) traces my chin with the tip of his finger... or rubs my earlobe slowly.
That weird sensation on the sides of the inside of your mouth just before you eat something very tasty.
Looking at airplanes flying really close to the ground, and the sound they make as they fade away.
Picturing how some people would look if they were completely bald.
The sound of Patrick's laughter.
Moving my legs beneath my sheets to make them feel fresh.
And I could keep on going, but maybe I wanna save some for later... Not like I'd ever run out of them but oh well. What about you? You probably have some things like these you'd like to share... and I'd like to know.
Tonight when I walked out of the gym, I was about to put my earphones on but I didn't. The city sounds that surrounded me were the perfect melody for my walk home. It's a nice time to walk, 9 pm, if you take some things into consideration, which is what I was thinking about during my walk.
Do you ever walk around your city and feel unsafe? Depending or where you live in, you might say yes, no, sometimes, or whatever. This is Mexico City I'm talking about though, as far as I know, the biggest city in the world and probably the most populated one (if Tokyo beats us in either of those, ignore it). This has, of course, its pros and cons; it's all about your perspective of life. Do you see the glass half empty or half full? I love my city. I love every little moment I live in it, even the bad moments, they form part of something greater... At night, while I'm walking back home I experience different feelings. I was walking down a road with poor lighting and no one around, and a strange looking guy was walking my way. I switched sidewalks. A precaution. Then I walked into an almost pitch-dark street, full of trees, and I saw the silhouette of a short, fat man in a suit. For some reason I didn't change sidewalks, I analyzed what I was about to run into, as if I were one of those robots in the movies. Short, fat, suited, man. Danger... 15%. Low. So I just walked past him, but I felt this chill, the one I get sometimed when I take a little risk with my safety in these situations. And I loved it. Love the feeling. As long as you know what you're doing here, you can enjoy a nice walk in the dark streets of Mexico City, of course don't go to crappy neighborhoods cuz nothing will save you from getting your ass kicked there.
As I said, there are all kinds of moments in Mexico City that'll bring out the most varied feelings in you. I intend to write more about these. I will always love this city for exactly what it is.
I was thinking today, while in the shower, that there's two reallyimportant things that I'm gradually losing because of lack of practice:
1. Imagination. 2. Videogame skills.
The first one, I noticed because well, when I was in the shower I thought: "I used to do play with my toys in the shower, when did I stop doing that?". I mean, it's not that I want to buy new toys again and take them in the shower with me and make up stories and stuff... but there are ways to use your imagination according to your age, and I just hope I'm not losing that ability, because when you lose your imagination things just get so boring... and before you know it you're no fun anymore. So that's one thing.
The next thing, videogame skills. The last console I had was the Xbox (normal one, transparent) and I didn't even play it that much, I only had like 4 games actually. Now I just use it as a DVD player. And not to mention my gamecube, which is somewhere in my closet getting dustier by the day. Ever since my last trip to the Netherlands, when I played with Patrick on his Xbox 360, I rediscovered videogames, and I wish I had an Xbox 360 myself now. I remember when I was a big videogame fan back in elementary school, and mom or dad wanted to play with me but they could never really understand how to play or the way the controllers worked. I don't want to be like that when I grow up. I want to be able to beat my grandkids at whatever they're playing by then.
So in some ways I guess you could say, I don't wanna grow up just yet.
Those were two random things that were in my dream last night, which was (at least at the moment) a bit freaky. Here's how it goes: First of all a "new" Nintendo console came out, which looked exactly like the Donkey Konga bongos but in purple, and a bit wider. I saw the new console at a store I was in and then I called some sort of Talk Show so I could be the first one to talk about it, but then some guy beat me to it. The image changed to the guy, talking about the console (in his house, or some weird hall), and explaining how it worked. However, before he could finish, he started going into like a weird trance and said weird / scary things like "only some years left and then I'll be gone", even though he looked quite young. After he said this, the Talk Show was interrupted due to technical difficulties, and then it was revealed that the guy had leukemia... after that he said more weird things (can't remember exactly), and then I woke up. It sounds pretty lame, but I was totally freaked out when I woke up. The guy had a really scary face when he want into that trance.
These are 4 artists that I like to listen to when I'm just chillin' at home... or even on the bus or whatever, and some of my favorite songs from them. They have amazing voices, and as far as I know they write their own songs & play instruments and whatever... (well I'm not so sure about all of them but whatever).
John Mayer: The Heart of Life, Love Song for No One, Gravity.
Adele: Melt My Heart to Stone, Cold Shoulder, Tired.
Amy Winehouse: You Know I'm No Good, Back to Black, Me & Mr. Jones.
Duffy: Mercy, Breaking My Own Heart, Distant Dreamer.
Valentine's Day is about being with the people you love right? So then I think I finally got it right after 18 years of doing it wrong! Got to talk to my Valentine (first time I have one), even though he's all the way up in the Netherlands, hopefuly next time we can actually be together, but hey, I can't complain. Then, after a good dose of boyfriend love, it's time to hang out with Tanya. The whole movie plan didn't work, but that couldn't stop us from having a good time. I liked Valentine's Day 2009. I think festivities are gonna be way better this year. Cheers!
