Paranoia

Paranoia is a thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion.

Been there, done that.
Only a few days ago, when the swine flu epidemic started, I was being paranoid.
I kept watching T.V. for news on this thing, kept looking online for more information about it, I had my iPod touch glued to my hand for the newsfeed about it. And for what? So I could get even more scared and paranoic by every little thing I read?
People make up all sorts of theories, and some of them even say they're experts or that they base what they say in what scientists or government officials said.
Some say it's worst than what you hear in the news, and that they're hiding things so we don't get so scared. Some say it's not as bad as it looks and that we shouldn't worry.
I say this, and you don't have to believe it either but it's just a word of advice.
Don't get obsessed with it. Stop trying to know everything about it, because it's not gonna make any sense when you see everyone has a different opinion about it. Stop being so damn worried. I'm not saying, "go out on the streets and kiss anyone you see!". I've been locked up at home for 5 days, at first it was because I really didn't want to go out. Now it's more because I'm lazy, but I would go out if I had to, being careful of course.
It's not that I think I'm better than everyone else, it's not that I don't believe there's an epidemic. Of course there's one, but don't let it make you go crazy. It's not the end of the world, and if it was, why would you want to spend your last days being worried?
Let it go. Take care. We'll be out on the streets before you know it.

I Want One

Some Little Pleasures

We all have them, little things that can really make our day. Here are some of mine.

Eating a big bowl of chocolate ice cream
Especially while watching something like Scrubs, 30 Rock, or House on T.V.
It's just so nice & creamy... it melts in your mouth and leaves the most wonderful taste. I really do think the flavour of chocolate can make people happy, through some sort of chemical reaction. I think heard about that somewhere. Anyways, I heart chocolate ice cream.


Mango Tango
It's this amazing drink from "La Buena Tierra" (one of my favorite restaurants) which has mango, orange, strawberry, raspberry, and other stuff in it I can't remember. It's so fresh & delicious, I could seriously not drink anything else for the rest of my life and be happy. If you haven't tried it, you should.


Watching "Mean Girls"
Best comedy ever! The best part is saying all the quotes you can remember throughout the movie while you watch it (although some people find that annoying lol). Everytime I watch it, I learn a new quote, which I will somehow incorporate into my everyday conversation.







Winning at strategy games
Sure I could just say "winning" but everyone loves winning, I want to specify strategy games because whenever I play Starcraft online or Risk and I win, I feel satisfied. Sounds geeky, but it's true, because all the work you put into building your army or whatever has been rewarded. So yeah, everytime I win I get in a really good mood.

Melting things
Childish? Maybe! But it still rules. I find melting things not only fun, but also relaxing. Ever since I was little I liked melting straws together and making figures. Plastic forks, cups, candy wrappings, pens, you name it. I like making the plastic all shiny or giving it a weird shape. The only bad thing is the smell of burnt plastic, oh and the risk of catching on fire.

Listening to John Mayer
No need for a lot of explanation. The guitar, the voice, the lyrics, he's got it all. He really loves music and he transmits that to the people who listen to him. I need to go to one of his concerts! I've mentioned him in this blog already a couple of times I think, but I don't care!



And there's so many other things, but for some reason all I can think about right now is food, like lasagna, krispy kreme doughnuts and Arizona green tea. Just goes to show that it's true that the way through a man's heart is through is stomache.

Got Ink?

I want a tattoo or two. Maybe not right now, but later on, when I know exactly what I want.
I've been doing some research about well known tattoos, and I found two which I like because of their meaning and what they look like.

The Koi Fish

"According to Japanese legend if a koi succeeded in climbing the falls at a point called Dragon Gate on the Yellow River it would be transformed into a dragon. Based on that legend, it became a symbol of worldly aspiration and advancement. "

Tell me that's not a kick-ass meaning for a tattoo. I mean, I think most of us have great ambitions and goals to accomplish, what better way to represent that than through a tattoo which symbolizes advancement.

The Nautical Star

This tattoo comes from sailors and they believed they worked as a "lucky charm" so that sailors could always find their way back home from their long trips. So the meaning is to always be able to go find your way back home.

Pretty nice for someone who wants to travel and live all over the world, but would like to come back home at some point.

I haven't checked a whole lot of tattoos, but I like the meanings these have. There's just one problem.



They're not original at all.



Tons of people have these tattoos, maybe in different designs or body parts, but it's still the same concept.

I want my tattoo to be unique and at the same time to symbolize something very important to me so that I will never regret it or get bored of it. If possible, or if I had enough inspiration I could try to draw it myself. I really don't know. I think I'll keep investigating, but to be honest I think that the idea for my first tattoo is just gonna come to me suddenly, not when I'm looking for it, and then I'll know I'm read for it.

Who knows? Maybe next time I write about tattoos on this blog it'll be to announce my first one.

Snowball Effect?

Have you ever been worried that a little mistake might evolve into something huge?


Like how you can accidently skip a line in one of those exams where you have to fill in circles, and then all of the other answers are gonna be wrong because of that, and then because of you failing that test which you needed to pass to graduate, you don't graduate, then you don't get into the university you wan't, you don't study what you planned to, and you end up working at McDonald's thinking "wow, I need to be more careful when filling out circles".
I have. But I realized this is stupid. Life just doesn't work that way.
Lately I've been worrying a lot about school instead of actually paying attention to it. I'm worried about two subjects which I'm not failing but I'm not exactly getting the best grades in, and if I don't pass them I won't go to Groningen to study this summer. Instead of worrying, I'm gonna start taking action, I need to pay attention in class, do my homework, work hard on my projects, and that way I'll easily pass them and forget about highschool in only one month.
It won't be easy of course. I'm so easily distracted during class. I mean, today I got kicked out for eating my PB&J sandwich, that was bullshit, but I should've known better, it's not like I'm new to the concept of not being able to eat during class... But anyway, I'll get it together, and raise my grades, probably with the help of my friends so I can rest assured that my future in Hanze University Groningen is secure.
I'm actually not very inspired to keep on writing, I wasn't even inspired to begin with, but it's been almost a month and I just had to write something... I was pretty much unplugged from the whole online world but I lived some of the best days of my life this spring break along with the person who owns my heart and I wouldn't have had it any other way. (: