You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel.
I can't tell you something that ain't real.
This is exactly how I feel right now.
It's hard to accept when something so good is suddenly over. Some people can't. Some people lie to themselves for years and hold on to their past, because it's all there's left to love. I refuse to do that, and so I chose to be honest with myself and my partner, and show how I really feel.
Is it possible to just fall out of love? I don't know. I don't know if that's what happened to me. All I know is somewhere along the road, I gradually lost that warm feeling I used to get, and the excitement to get home for another talk. There's no particular reason. It's definitely not his fault.
In fact, sometimes I feel like it's mine, but really I can't put my finger on why it happened. I don't know who or what to blame. Time & distance? Perhaps. But perhaps not. Maybe we both changed too much. Maybe this is how it's supposed to be.
All I know is that I'll treasure every moment I had while it was still good. I'll never forget every lesson learned, and I'll never, ever, regret a single thing we did together because honestly he's a really great guy and any other boy would be lucky to have him.
We will remain friends. Even if right now it's hard & awkward. We'll work past it eventually. I want to keep him in my life, and for what I understand so does he.
We have learned and grown so much from this, but now... it's time for us to go back to our own projects and pursuit other dreams. Nevertheless we'll always be there for each other, for we have gained a true friendship from this.
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